I woke up at 3:30 this morning thinking about something that has plagued me lately; why can’t I stop thinking about makeup? To give you some context… Recently I decided to upgrade the makeup I own, there are only a few pieces I actually use and they all seem to make my eyes itch and/or burn. I went off on a search for cruelty free, vegan makeup that works well, and doesn’t make you want to pull out your eyeballs….
As this is my first post on our blog, I’ve wanted to share about myself in such a way that I would normally not like to do. I have an addiction to the belief and feeling from others that I’m a nice guy, so talking about myself in this way for everyone to see has been quite a challenge and something I’ve been very resistive to do. As long as I can remember I have basically believed that there probably…
I want to be comfortable all the time. I want to feel safe and secure and unchallenged. I want to avoid feeling too hot or too cold, afraid or sad, hurt or vulnerable. I am very good at maintaining ‘equilibrium’, especially when David is there to provide me emotional security. But… I’ve never felt ‘comfortable’ during a stage of positive growth. I know that I need to learn to love and enjoy the process of change and growth. Right now,…
For years David and I have joked about our co-dependence, we sort of viewed it as a little issue that we would need to deal with down the road (a long way down the road). I never saw it as something that was holding us back or harming us. I have recently become aware (rather suddenly) that it is actually a serious problem. By engaging in co-dependence with David, I am holding myself back, I am holding David back, I’m…
Over time Aoife settled down and she didn’t frustrate and annoy me so much anymore, but I still regretted getting her. One day I had just given her a bath, when she went and found a half-rotten kangaroo leg. It smelled terrible! It suddenly all fell into place… dogs are meant to clean up dead animals. I was getting frustrated with Aoife for something she is supposed to do! I decided right then that I would find a new home…
As a teenager who was afraid of the people around her and who had been treated unkindly in primary school, I developed a facade that I thought protected me. I learned later that for years the other kids at my high school were sure that I was a cold, unfriendly bitch. I had been so afraid that they would be mean and make fun of me that I built up a wall around myself and the feelings I projected out…
When we were at a friend’s place recently David spotted something he didn’t recognise and asked “what is that?” The friend explained that the metal cone hanging up was used for stuffing a chook in upside down and cutting it’s head off. “Oh” said David. On the way home we talked about the stark contrast between killing a chook, plucking out it’s feathers, gutting it and chopping it up (all the while making sure that you are not introducing any…
We recently bought a puppy. She is an Irish wolfhound, the type of dog I have wanted since I was about 14 years old. We had tossed around the idea of getting a dog in the last 6 months, but every time we decided against it, because I was addicted to having company, it was a big commitment, or we weren’t sure that having an animal dependent on us was a loving choice. Two months ago though, when David searched…